But in her heart a cold December
April is in my mistress' face by Thomas Morley
"Time slows down, whenever you're around" , a quote i would say is rather UNTRUE.
Life has been so beautiful.
I have basically everything I need.
A caring family.
Some AWESOME friends.
Spontaneous drama.
Everything's great, really.
The thing is.
I've been thinking so much about my pass.
First, when I was younger, a todler.
I remember telling Mom and Dad , " WHY CANT I BE A GROWN UP?"
I wish i never said that.
Because look at me now.
I'm a sort-of grown up.
I feel like I'm doing nothing in my life.
I miss being responsible FOR, and not actually BEING RESPONSIBLE.
I miss having times with my parents, manja-ing around.
I miss being able to relax all the time, like I have all the time in the world.
I miss EVERYTHING about being a child.
Look at me now. I'm thirteen is two days.
I'm not looking forward on ANYTHING about being a real..TEEN.
My heart sinks when i say that.
It's like , anything to do with getting older, my voice breaks.
I guess everyone deals with it.
But, do they take it the way I do? Guess, not.
I remember on the December of 2009, I was looking forward to High school.
Now? I'm really having fun and stuff.
But, I look back and say. "Time passes too quickly"
I also remember when I was trying to act all grown up in Elementry school.
Gosh! WHAT WAS I THINKING.
i know,i know.
you guys think.
" What's up with Nessa? Being all sentimental? "
Your answer.
Sorry, I have no idea.
Maybe it's stepping into a new age.
You know? it's like in FIVE years, I go to college.
It's already half the year and it just felt like. A day.
FIVE days more to college.
I would just freak.
I guess, i shall stop here.
-I'm thirteen in two days. :'(
nessah, out!